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The
scent of the flowers I held seemed almost overwhelming when the double doors of the chapel
opened, Saturday evening, September 19, 1998. The coordinator was there, straightening,
fussing, making everything perfect. The chill of the crisp fall night disappeared as
warmth flooded my body, and seeped through to my where my heart was beating too quickly.
Yes, I was nervous, but not frightened. I knew that what I was about to do was the right
thing. I had spent many long nights searching my soul, imagining my life without him, and
with him. Emptiness was all I saw when he was not in my life. A life with Edward, well, I
knew I would continue to experience so many new things, and it would not always be easy,
but I loved that man, and I wanted desperately to be with him...Forever. The coordinator signaled to me, as I, including my
father and mother, made our way to alter. I breathed in and smiled through gritted teeth.
Clutching the bouquet of orchids and red
roses , I noticed the deep burgundy/rose color combination brought out the colors I had
chosen for my maid of honor and attendants to wear. (I had asked my sister, Antoinette, to
stand as my maid of honor. I do not see her often, but we talk whenever possible).
Choosing everyone's dress/tuxedo was quite easy. Thank goodness for catalogs. In the end,
we had worked out the color scheme and it was simply a matter of time for the grand
display.
As I walked out of the Bridal room, I
heard the beautiful sounds from my harpist, Ann Roos.
The sounds were romantic yet magical, the perfect combination of sounds I wanted to
achieve in my wedding. I felt like I was in heaven, like I was in "A Whole New
World". She added that very special touch I wanted. It was truly "Some Enchanted
Evening".
All of a sudden, "La, I am
scared." Antoinette said nervously.
"What do you have to be scared
about?" I giggled, "I am the one getting married."
"I can't remember what I have to do.
I can't play for you anymore."
I saw the insecurity in her pleading
eyes, and it touched me. Reassuring her, I took her hand and told her to relax and calm
down.
"You'll be fine, Antoinette. Don't
worry."
We laughed, but underneath that laughter,
was the fear that she would be laughed at. It was after all, her second major performance
in front of a live audience; her first being her piano recital at the end of her freshman
year in high school. Maybe this would allow her to realize how important she was, is. Our
lives would be different from that moment on.
"Last chance to stop me." She
teased, then looking back she asked in all seriousness, "You ready La?"
I took a deep breath and smiled.
"Ready."
Looking down the aisle, I saw the people
who meant the most to me. My family and close relatives were there. I could not believe I
was finally going through with this.
As I began the slow walk down that path
that would lead to my intended, I saw him...Edward stood there smiling at me, looking more
handsome than I had ever seen him before. Standing next to him, holding a small pillow was
his nephew, Harlan, looking like a small replica of his uncle. Behind Harlan was Edward's
sister, and best "woman", Lynne, including my brothers, Ronald and Dominic.
Anissa, was on the other side of them, holding her basket of rose petals, with Antoinette,
Emily and Mary by her. I took my place beside Ed and heard a small whispered voice say,
"You look beautiful." Love flooded through me. I wanted to kiss Ed, but smiled
and nervously whispered the same.
Rev. Sayed started the ceremony but it
all became a blur. I was lost in Ed's eyes in the way he was looking at me, and the
feelings of love that we were sharing. Before I knew it, we were saying our vows and Ed
leaned down, pulled the veil away from my face and kissed me deeply. It was as if I was
waking from a dream, and I realized I was his wife. If I did not have a video tape of the
entire ceremony, I would not have known that Antoinette played perfectly, despite missing
her opening line. The half hour ceremony played down almost perfectly to the script I prepared for the attendants, even with no
rehearsal.
Ed put his arm protectively around me and
guided me back down the aisle. The feelings of love and happiness seemed overwhelming and
I began to cry. With a scream of relief, happy, joyous tears streamed down my face and I
almost dropped my bouquet I was carrying.
After all the excitement, we stopped in
the foyer to greet our guests. As the faces swirled by, I found myself having a hard time
concentrating on who was who and what was being said to me. My thoughts kept creeping back
to Ed. I yearned to be alone with him...
The evening reception was held at our
suite, a large room, but not large enough to accommodate nearly 50 guests comfortably. The
table displaying the cake and champagne were due to arrive. We danced, we laughed, we
finally ate, but we never seemed to have time to be alone. Several times during the
evening I found Ed looking over at me and he would wink, making me blush. I knew what he
was thinking, and he knew that I was thinking about it too
Amid the shower of well wishes, we
made our appearance and graciously excused our guests out of our suite...
We never let go of each other that night.
We eventually slept entwined in each others' arms. After the champagne brunch celebration
the following day, Hawaii was our next destination. It was beautiful just as everyone says
it is, but I think it was made even more special because fate had brought us there, just as it had brought Ed to my classroom
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